January 20, 2013

no 41

and sometimes, i will wake up in the middle of the night, staring at the ceiling, and suddenly this fear come in (because i am scared of ghosts and darkness), paying attention to the sound of the fan blades, paying attention to the whole edge of the room, denying all illogical abrupt thoughts, checking what time is it on the phone screen, and there is you, on my wallpaper. with that big smile. 

if i call you in the middle of the night, just to ask for you to sing me some songs for my lullaby, just wanting you to accompany me because i am in a great fear, will you answer my call?

will you be there when i need you the most?

1 comment:

stuvwxyz said...

sometimes it is better not to wonder and just go ahead with it. if you call and he doesn't pick up then be it. I always hum myself to sleep, and it works :)